Warrior of the Light

I have had encounters with some intense personalities this week. After reeling from these experiences, I realize that they are my teachers as I have been trying to step more fully into my power, and what better way to facilitate that than to have someone try and cut you down. As painful as it was in those moments to endure the emotional abuse and cutting words, something inside of me rose up in response. This felt deeper than a need to defend myself, but rather I heard the voice of my true self, the part of me I often hide when I am afraid to stand out against the status quo, even if I feel there is injustice around me. The words that follow are from the voice of my true self in response to efforts by others to obliterate her.

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I am a warrior of the light. If you try to cut me down because my truth and light are a threat to you, I will rise higher, not lower. If my truth is a reflection for you that you do not want to see, I want you to know that is not my intention. But if you punish me for being a mirror for you, I may be angry at first, but I will rise above it and find another way through. My kindness is not weakness. My kindness is born from pain, as I know what it is like to be treated carelessly and hurtfully. My kindness comes from not wanting to inflict the same energy that I have felt come at me.

I am a warrior of the light. Whenever I can, I will stand up for the downtrodden, the ignored, the unseen. I have felt this way myself, perhaps even in lifetimes other than this one, and there is only balance  the world when we can show compassion to those who are less fortunate than we are.

I am a warrior of the light. I still have my own darkness that I wrestle with, but the light holds me even so.

I am a warrior of the light. I will not argue with you if it seems like doing so will just bring us into more darkness and confusion. If you are so threatened by me that you have to put me down to make yourself feel better, than I care not for your approval. You are vibrating at a level I have no interest in stooping to, no matter what position of power you hold over me.

I am a warrior of the light. And the burning flame inside of me will not be extinguished by your darkness, your smallness or your fear.

I am a warrior of the light. I have all I need inside of me to forge the path that is for my highest good and for those around me. I do not need anything external to tell me this; I can feel it burning bright inside. My light is larger than your darkness, no matter how much power you hold or how you align against me with those weaker than you.

I am a warrior of the light. Those who are meant to be attracted into my world will be drawn to me, and I can let everyone else go on their way. I don’t need to be ‘right’, as the energy I would spend explaining myself to others who cannot hear my truth would take away from the energy I need to forge ahead on my mission.

I am a warrior of the light. I am not going to let your cruelty overtake me or turn me away from the truth inside of me, pulsing from my core.

I am a warrior of the light. I am at times weary from battle, and this is when I connect to my divine source for replenishment and comfort. I hold steadfast to my sword of truth and love in the face of all darkness, for I know that what is inside of me cannot be extinguished. I know in my heart that the light is always more powerful than the darkness, even when it may not appear to be so.

I am a warrior of the light.

 

painting of Joan of Arc by unknown artist